Love equal Sacrifice (?)

From the very first time I was breathing air, my mother told me one story about what love can possibly be… she told me about a princess from deep beneath the sea, who fell in love with a price when she safe him during a thunder storm, she was more than willing to trade her voice for a pair of legs, she is willing to move from one place to another which was beyond her world.
I’m sure at this 429 world we don’t have a problem leaping from a country like Indonesia then move to a cozy European having Danish bread and latte for breakfast, I wouldn’t put that as an extreme decision like the mermaid did.

Let’s just face it, in every bloody relationship we need a sacrifice, or yet to be exact, to sacrifice. Our time, money etc
I never had a thing called love like the mermaid had, I felt like, when I was paying the bills because the older one pays it, the top fucks the bottom, the rich feeds the poor, and so on and so on,
Until recently when I was hanging out with my straight friends, he excuse himself due he is going to pick up his girl, and I was like, dude told her to grab a cab. But with love in his eyes he felt more secure to know that she is safe at home if he is the one to take her there. The feeling of wanting to give protection, to give love, natural course like the water runs in the river.

Suddenly I felt warm inside

There are many things that I need to learn about this human thing call love
I’m tired of this waiting and wanting but turn to fail
As you can see I am very jealous of my friend
How hard it is to get a lover, the love of your life?
About a few months ago my heart was consume with this man, let’s just call him the good old Mr B,
He was infected with swine flu during his visit to Thailand, “hmm I wonder who did he kiss thus he got the flu?”

Well, any way… a friend of mine told me to take everything back, all of the emotion and energy that I given him, so I will be in ground zero again just to make it fair and balance.
So I did, I changed my number, my email, and delete my fridae account then make another fridae account (it’s like feng shui leave the old house and move to another new one).
By the time im done with the pathetic drama, I was sitting in my balcony and thinking about what I have past within the few months of crying and lots of chocolate (I eat that when im stress) and pin point a few point about my very own personal guidelines.

1. No idiot has the right to tell me to keep-on-fighting-for-your-love while that loser just sat there and waiting for someone to do all the dirty works
2. If you wanna make it happen then make it happen
3. No idiot will say I-am-so-focus-in-you while keep on hunting for boys in some free dating site (im counting your daily-heart!!!)
4. Last but not least, if you’re not going to make it happen, then just say it thus you won’t be wasting someone else’s time, energy and avoiding the heartbreaks

So, how hard it is to get a lover, the love of your life?
In my humble opinion: it is god damn mother f**king hard
Thanks for reading
Good night folks